Deadness and apathy on today’s Golgotha

At this moment, I have to draw your eyes upon you and show you what Jesus sees from His cross. I am not talking here about the crimes of the world, but about you who are standing under the cross. Jesus is looking for friends. He looks around and wants to find any, even the smallest consolation, which will give Him encouragement and strength. Among the few gathered under the cross, He sees only but a few souls, and even this is rare. People, full of obliviousness and disbelief, are thinking about their problems, waiting for the end of the Holy Mass. It is as if they were saying: ”When will He finally die?” The altar boys are poking at each other, the priest confuses the words of the prayer, there is a reverberating squeak, all eyes turn towards the sound, emptiness, deadness, nothingness. At the time of the elevation, Jesus sees all those who pretend to kneel, who crouch for fear of scandal and condemnation from the side of people, who kneel because of people and not because of God. Jesus is looking for and wants to meet the gaze of a soul who loves Him, but no one is looking at Him. Some are soothing children; others bow their heads but forget why they are doing it; others arrange their clothes or try to accommodate their knees so they would not feel discomfort; still others are searching with their gaze something more worthy of interest. The entire church falls into a kind of apathy, knowing that something is happening because of what they should behave distinctively, but actually do not know how. So they wait through this moment, and only come back to life at the words of the priest who calls them to pray ‘’Our Father’’. The priests, tempted by the evil spirit, are often running with their thoughts into the future, planning their duties and goings-on. And when lifting Jesus, they do so mechanically, without love and without faith, not giving Him the opportunity to receive His due glory. It is as if this moment was inconvenient and incomprehensible also for the priest.  Even he wishes for this strange moment, during which he does not really know how he should feel and what he should say, to already end.

 


Translated from : Tajemnica Mszy świętej według św. Ojca Pio na podstawie Orędzi na Czasy Ostateczne które własnie nadeszły, Grzechynia 2013, p. 41-42


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