Saint John about trust


Saint John the Evangelist:  I trusted Him. I believed in Him. He was for me the living image of God. How could I doubt Him ? Everything He did was holy. I loved Him so much that I could not doubt, because after I would no longer be able to look Him in the eyes. Only once I have shown this weakness. It was this terrible time during the night in Gethsemane. Only thanks to Divine Providence I got up from that fall. Alone, I would never have been able to go to Him. I knew how great a disappointment I have caused Him, how enormously He has been wounded by us through our doubt. He knew my every thought. It remained only to bow down before the infinite goodness of God and cry over our own disbelief… And then run to Him and be beside Him, even to death.

Translated from : Kompendium III z Orędzi na Czasy Ostateczne, które własnie nadeszły (z tomów 9-16), Warszawa 2014, p. 97