To live by faith from an early age


Saint Agnes:  Today I will not speak for long, but I will tell you about my life, to give you testimony that you can live by faith and for faith, not only in situations of danger, when the whole truth about the faith of man comes to light, but in everyday life, which is not yet about life-and-death decisions, or at least does not seem to ask for such decisions. The truth, however, is such that man decides already from an early age about his future fate, choosing between good and evil. If he yields to evil and does not desire good, it can be a life-and-death decision, because he risks falling into sins, getting used to bad habits and developing evil inclinations, which later it will be very difficult to remove. None of us knows how long we will live and our life does not belong to us. Man was created by God and only the one God knows how many years He gave him to spend on Earth. If from an early childhood man begins to follow the good, it will be much easier for him to walk the right path in the future. If he is left alone to himself without a proper education, then, without an extraordinary grace of God, he can succumb to an easy life and get used to choosing things that are comfortable and pleasant, but not necessarily good. And for our deeds, we should care from the beginning; because the Book of Life does not record the deeds of man from a mature age, but from the early childhood, from the beginning, although it takes into account his awareness and circumstances.

When I found out that there is a God and that He offered us the proof of His love towards us in His Son, I wanted to devote all my life to Him, to the crucified Jesus, in whom I believed wholeheartedly. Christianity was not a popular religion at that time. It was considered rather as a dangerous sect that was feared like fire and destroyed with great ferocity due to this fear, and this is because Christians were free. They submitted to the law of the state only as far as it was consistent with the confession of the One God. Everything that was at odds with Christianity was overlooked and disobeyed. This is why Christians were considered to be mad people, enslaved by their teachers and priests, officiating strange rites, eating blood and flesh in the literal and human sense, and not in the mystical sense. No one, however, who does not have faith, can comprehend what for a Christian are the Blood and the Flesh of his God. All our services and prayers were misunderstood. For the Rome of that time, where reigned the cult of the body and well-being, spiritual faith and worship in a spiritual way were incomprehensible; the communion with God in such a close and real way, but on the spiritual plane. Rome deemed that the worship of a man, whom Rome found guilty and sentenced to death, already is a crime against Rome.

In such circumstances I was born and in such conditions I happened to live, but it never occurred to me that I could have lived in different times. Since God has placed my existence in Rome and at the beginnings of Christianity, it meant to me that this was the best for me. There remained, however, the question: what God wants from me? Why did he call me to life and how could I devote my life to Him, in order to turn out to be grateful and worthy of His act of creation?

Translated from : Kompendium IV z Orędzi na Czasy Ostateczne, które własnie nadeszły (z tomow 17-22), Warszawa 2014, p 152-153